Friday, met Serena in the city around 11am, went for a haircut, had lunch. Then, Alex called her, she was supposed to go shopping with the Mels in the city. So Serena asked Alex if I could come too and we both went to meet them at Harbourtown. T'wasn't that bad. I think bridges are rebuilding themselves, slowly, but hopefully, surely. We all split ways about 4.45pm. I headed home to change and get ready to go for the Avenue Q musical. Friday night was a rollercoaster. S was 30+minutes late to meet me, even though she set the meeting time. When I got in the car, you could cut the tension with a knife. I easied up after that, started to enjoy her company again. But I still was planning on giving her a taste of her own medicine, I was texting people throughout the night, being very vague, and basically acting how she always acted. Then when I mentioned that I might go join the rest after the musical for karaoke, her mood went downhill again. So I tried to salvage it la, by like saying oh she'd be my frist choice and I'd only go if she wanted to go home and stuff. Cause I knew she was sian, but she didn't wanna tell me anything about it. So we parked the car and started walking to the Regal Theatre in Subicao. On the way, she finally opened up, saying that she felt like just taking the next flight home cause she was tired of going through whatever she was going through. We talked abit about it, then got our tickets and enjoyed the musical throughly. Avenue Q is really awesome la, and we only had to pay AU$50 for it here! Sweet. Darek called and asked if I wanted to hang out during the musical, so I called him back after and we decided on Onyx Bar, cause I knew that S would go if it were at Onyx. We had about an hour to kill, so we drove around, attempted to pump air into her car's tires, and made a super duper impulsive decision to go to King's Park. There was this crazy ass jam in King's Park, the worst I've ever seen. The line of cars went for more than 2km, it was the most populated I've seen King's Park. There was no way that we were gonna get out of there fast and we didn't wanna sit in the car in the jam, so we went to walk to the war memorial, then lay down and stargazed and talked. We left when Christine called, saying that they've picked Leon and Debby up and were on the way to Onyx. Drove down to Onyx, only to wait outside for 30minutes, watching fights break out. We decided to find another club, Metro City being the first choice. When we got there, S and I stood outside, and listened to the music. It really sucked so I asked them if they wanted to go to Eve instead. So Eve it was. When we got there, S and I had to use the bathroom, so we paid the cover charge and went in first. Then, Christine called and said that the rest didn't really want to club tonight, just wanted to chill and all that, so they weren't gonna come in. I got damn pissed I tell you. One, cause S was damn sian, two, cause they should've said something when we were club hopping. So the two of us went up, I drank, then we stood around for the longest time. Luckly, we met some random people who were high and happy, and kept getting us to dance. I did enjoy myself at Eve, except for the parts where S got phone calls from him, and just walked away without a word. Of course I followed, but stood out of earshot and waited patiently for her till she was done. Then suddenly she told me that she was leaving around 2am, going to meet him. I'm like, oh, okay. In my head I was thinking, "You're gonna meet him, then what am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to get home?" I got even more irritated. Drank somemore, let loose, partied with random people. I was surprised when she didn't leave at 2am, she stayed till Christine texted saying that they were leaving. So I told them to wait for me, walked S to her car, then met up with them. Ended up going to Darek's to play cards and mahjong till morning, then I took the bus home alone.
Slept from 9+am till 3+pm. Was gonna start studying when S msned me.
s watcha up to ... s theres a flight out at 1am i feel like taking it ifs and maybes. if that's what you really want then go for it s idk if i shd its quite rush too but i just wanna get out of here ... ifs and maybes. hmm why wouldn't you want to take the flight s dno if im doing it out of anger ifs and maybes. what happened? s v la ... s hmmmm idk a part of me wants to go, but a part of me is feeling too fucked out to walk out the house *up ifs and maybes. can i go over then? s and do what? idk if i can entertain u im just feeling damn low now ifs and maybes. i'll just listen if you want to talk s hmm..if u rly have nth else to do i guess ifs and maybes. i'll see you in abit k s k take ur time As soon as she asked "watcha up to", I had a feeling that something was up. Cause she doesn't usually ask me what I'm doing and all that random stuff. So I walked over, spent the evening/night with her. We talked about what she was going through, and I gave my opinions. She told me that she's only staying in Perth cause he asked her to, cause he said that they'd do stuff together. I was damn sad when I heard that, and was wondering if she'd stay if I asked her to. I mean, I ask her to come to the library to keep me company already she wouldn't. She said that she was tired of him always walking away from her, like leaving her to hang out with her friends, and I knew exactly what she meant, cause I feel that way about her. I told her abit of that, but didn't wanna unload everything on her when she was already so low. Stayed, chatted, had dinner with the folks in her house, chilled in her room. Met William at 11.30pm and we went to check out this house party down at Cottlesloe. Syak invited us, but it turned out to be a gathering/chillout session. We stayed till midnight then left to head home.
Got up today, slacked around. And am still slacking. Serena called earlier and we talked for the longest time. Damn fun la that kid. She said that V was probably with S, and I agreed. Oh well, hope they manage to sort things out.
My 3rd paper is in 16 hours, and I've yet to start studying for it. Intended to start yesterday but S was feeling so low. I don't really know how I'm gonna pass my paper tomorrow. Probably gonna pull an all nighter, finish my coke and red bull and snacks at the same time.
Sze was right la, its damn hard to watch the one I care about so much, leave and walk into someone else's arms. But I don't really have a choice do I. =(
"So take, take everything, and leave me scrambling. Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place."
