Thursday, December 13, 2007
Somehow I managed to get myself through my daily routine without a glitch, in spite of all that happened yesterday.
I even managed to fall asleep.
I dunno if I'm traumatized or in shock or if I'm just getting over it easier.
But I do know one thing,
My feelings have not changed.
I still care much more than I ever should.
Damn me.
Bayside - Just Enough To Love You
Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
Won't make promises
You taught me that
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
You've got friends galore
And all you've ever been to me is a waste of time, and nothing more
Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
Won't make promises
You taught me that
I hate myself
For loving you like this
I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
Just enough to love you
And the time you said that this is forever..
